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I am a natural lucid dreamer. When I was sick,
I dreamed away whole strings of days that burst
with causal power, as if the sun, shining past
my silted eyelids, had spilled a home behind them.


You watched how well I played that girl:
high heels, sparkle eyes,
sitting on his work desk with my lips curled,
legs crossed, booze at needle length
beneath my skin expelling floral tones,
pectoral blushes.  


I pretended to fall asleep on top of his blankets
so I had access to my concave nest,
a place without his hands on my stomach, no,
and without his mouth on my shoulder.
Now I am not even here
and he doesn't know, not at all.


ii.
My respectability besieged
the rest of me when I believed
in being respectable, for,


like a miasma of red night,
pulling up sleep in orange-tasting sinews,


you were born from a nautilus shell
to ensnare the thirst of laughing.


Had you been tossed so far beyond yourself during the night
that you woke up aware that you think about eternity
because it's manifest within you? You feel awake,
so very aware and in awe of your own infinity.

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edit 2.8.2013: finally got around to changing this. I'm fond of it now.
I tried to make it less self-important. This is a big project I'm working on, in lots of my poems.
I had to cut the lines that everybody liked. I'm really sorry and I hate doing that. I just can't stand having "kiss" and "poison" too close together in a poem. The cliche bells ring on and on. I hope you understand


with lots of things needing to be changed.

This actually took me all day. Over eight hours. If only I could apply the same industry to finals...
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orangecloudsraining Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2013  Student Writer
the first and last stanzas but especially the last. i know that, i know it.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013
Oh yes. :hug:
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I think your poetry is going to give me heart attacks. Or it won't stop until I'm green with pure envy! I feel like I could learn a lot from your writing: It is consumed with such beautiful allusions and metaphors. I... I really want to give you these super long and huge comments to show my appreciation, and also because I want to do that with everyone included within my Poetry Roadtrip. However... your words leave me speechless. I just am in awe. You are severely underappreciated with THIS kind of talent. I am so glad to have the privilege of reading through your works, and I hope with the feature, this piece can perhaps earn some of the recognition it deserves.

My absolute favorite line was: "as if the sun, shining past/my silted eyelids, had spilled a home behind them"
Where to even start? The many implications of someone being touched by warmth, perhaps even for the first time in a while. I just get this happy feeling, but also an incredibly lonely feeling. For someone to feel that as a home or come to that realization... I don't know how to explain it, but I wish I did. It was just beautiful. Absolutely and positively gorgeous.
I want to quote more of my favorite parts of this poem, but I feel that I would pretty much just be quoting the whole entire thing. Please know you are such a lovely writer! It is truly my pleasure to be reading through your lovely works :heart:
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013
Thank you so much! Haha this is quite flattering - the pleasure and the privilege is mine, for sure :heart:
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AMWeitz Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2013  Student Writer
Holy mother of god. I feel as though I have stared into the eye of the infinite.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2013
That is an effect far beyond any I have ever expected to be taken from my work.

If you have stared into the eye of the infinite, I assure you that it is because of your own doing, and I am proud to have played an auxiliary role.

But really. Thank you. :heart: :coffeecup:
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AMWeitz Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2013  Student Writer
I assure you, it is you that is the...the drug that transported me to the wonderful world within this poem. And besides, if you had expected greatness, perhaps it wouldn't have come to you? ;)

You're very welcome.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013
I always expect greatness, and I am always disappointed. I think about the fact that Eliot had already started working on Prufrock when he was my age, look down at my page of scribbles, and think to myself, good god, this is it, something greater than (great poem of your choosing) is being born.

It locks me in a perennial state of disappointment. Sometimes I arrive at something decent, and it pleases me.
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AMWeitz Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Student Writer
I understand. At any rate, THIS is something to be proud of. I promise. :heart:
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013
Aww :heart:
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silvernium Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
as if the sun, shining past
my silted eyelids, had spilled a home behind them.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013
Almost cut this out because I felt like this image is really inaccessible. Kept it in because of the cadence. I'm glad to hear that was the right decision. :heart:
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silvernium Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
It is an image I know very well. And one very hard to articulate. Surely something hard to articulate is worth giving form to - word wise?
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2013
Yes, words are tricky little things. Never quite exact.
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insomaniac55 Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013   Writer
Damn this one is good. I used to practice a lot of lucid dreaming years ago, and I tried to get back into it a year ago, but I wasn't as effective as it was during high school.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2013
Thank you!
Yes, it's starting to become a bit of a bad habit. I was late to class this morning and I hadn't done the work; not that it would have went over well if I told my professor my excuse was that I was "dreaming"...
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thesquareroot Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
amazing piece. i'm also a natural lucid dreamer and at one stage in my life i would keep a journal next to my bed in an effort to "harness" some of them. but now if i try to wake myself during a deep dream state i have a strange series of pseudo-awakenings where i awake at home in my bed and play out the act of recording dreams in my journal, but it's always just another dream itself. then i springboard from that dream into an even deeper and more vivid one, and i can essentially cycle through dreams in that sense as much or as little as i care to.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2013
Ah, yes, that's amazing! That happens to me every so often - I'll never forget this one night when I suddenly woke up out of a really freaky dream, but of course I was still dreaming, so I dreamed that I was going about my morning routinely until elements of the dream from which I had awoken started to creep in and it became really scary because I thought I was awake, so I went back to sleep in my dream and fixed the weird dream into something pleasant and normal, and "woke up" again and went about my morning routine with no interruptions, and then woke up for real. It was magical. I wish there were a less confusing way of describing that!
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thesquareroot Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
no, i completely understand, happens to me most nights/mornings. it's also occurred to me recently that i would use a similar device was i was very young and having a nightmare. instead of trying to wake up from the bad dream, i would try falling asleep in the dream itself so i could "wake up" into a normal one.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013
Have you ever been able to do this? [link]
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thesquareroot Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
very interesting. i've actually instinctively developed my own method essentially like the OBE exit described on the website. i'll lie in bed, as comfortably close the the edge of the bed as possible. then i visualize the edge of the bed being made of sand and that i can feel it slowly crumbling away beneath me until eventually i feel myself figuratively slide out of the bed and onto the floor, at which point i am awake in my own bedroom in an entirely lucid dream. as the website suggests i normally perform a perfunctory reality check which entails using telekinesis to pull some small, innocuous object into my hand. after that, it's pretty much whatever i can imagine.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013
That's a fantastic image. Sand. That's perfect.
I don't have any method like that, I'm not even sure how I do it, sometimes it happens right when I fall asleep and other times I wake up, so to speak, into a lucid dream when I'm already dreaming. It's often accidental. But once I get going, I can stay asleep in a lucid dream forever. Sometimes I have to get a lot of sleep before I can do this.
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thesquareroot Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i've recently been applying a mnemonic device called method of loci(or memory palace)to my dream state and have essentially built a structured palace of dreams where each room is its own lucid induction, not just allowing me to exit but more intriguingly re-enter specific dream lines, essentially being able to pause and replay them at will. it really is all quite interesting, i'd highly recommend checking it out.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2013
Wow. That's amazing. I have a fledgling memory palace for things when I'm awake - it's mostly full of Latin and Greek stuff. But wow. It would be so cool to try it in my dreams.
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hyperfluxy Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013   Writer
Yes... beautiful. I relate to this so very personally.

I think everyone can and will, (and should)
but personally speaking eternity is so very evident at the time of dawn....
Rimbauds "sun mingled with the sea",
Eliot's "still point of the turning world."
Have you ever read Andre Breton's Nadja?

when he begins to speak directly to the reader-
"you, for whom everything is analogous to a sunrise, and whom for that reason I may not see again."

there was never a time before now when i've felt it more important
to keep awake long enough to capture that moment, and having it in your art is the most important... and you've got it here, like holding breath. eternity which is, after all, the absence of time.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2013
Yes, and I love all those references you pointed out; lots of beauty and wisdom there.
This is a really beautiful comment, love, and I don't think I can reciprocate the loveliness. Thank you ever for your words. :heart:
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hyperfluxy Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013   Writer
Your poetry is more than enough!

Always eternally welcome :blowkiss:
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dreamshards8 Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2012  Student Writer
I find the topic of lucid dreams spontaneously repeating itself more and more in my life recent;y. I enjoyed the poem, and completely agree there is nothing like the experience. The possibilities are endless.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2012
It's my favorite thing to do. I go on binges sometimes and do nothing but dream for a couple of days. It's better than any drug. It's better than anything in real life. I've been doing it since I was eight years old. It's my favorite thing.
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Wow - the sound patterning in this piece is impressive.. the way it will slip teasingly and temporarily into iambs, the way some parts manage to be so thick with repetition without being cloying - I'm thinking particularly of the second stanza, particularly of "When I was sick,/ I dreamed away whole strings of days that burst/ with causal power" - and all that music not instead of but enhancing meaning! I'm surprised it only took one day. Good stuff.

I'm thinking about eternity because it's manifest within this poem ;)

Is it weird that the first section reminds me of this music video: [link]
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2012
Yes this song!! When I worked at Barnes & Noble, this album was on our really short playlist... I listened to it several times a day... like it a lot more now that I don't work there anymore. Much more.

Thank you so much for such a thoughtful comment! I usually don't write my poems all in one sitting, so this one was a bit weird. I'm glad you think the sound works... I think in some places it's a bit mouthy and awkward, too prosaic, etc. There are things that need to be changed, but I don't know where to start.
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UnspecifiedUnknown Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2012   Writer
"I am drinking off his smile

for my tongue is made of activated charcoal,
and no one kisses like a poisoned man."
killed me, and

"Had I been tossed so far beyond myself during the night

that I woke up aware
that I think about eternity
because it's manifest within me?
I felt awake, so very aware

and in awe of my own infinity."


i love you
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2012
I really wish I could see what everyone else in that line!! I want to cut it out soo badly...

I love you too, sweetest. :heart:
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silvernium Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
that I woke up aware
that I think about eternity
because it's manifest within me?
I felt awake, so very aware


and in awe of my own infinity.

of course ;)
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012
You would understand this: how much desperation it takes to craft these words when the whole universe is waiting in suspended breath, and all possibilities of language and form made available. When thinking this way, "of course" is the only reaction.
:heart: :coffeecup:
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silvernium Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It is also about when the thinking stops, you will still receive what will end up as words.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2012
Yes. Handfuls of yes. I can give only receiving.
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wordeea Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
rien ne se perd, rien ne se créé. great piece !
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012
That is such a lovely thing to say about my work!
Thanks, love! :heart: :coffeecup:
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autumnlit Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2012
Oh this is just fantastic. This might sound totally weird, but it's like the human version of the Velveteen Rabbit to me. If that makes any sense at all. In any case, I loved this. :heart:
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2012
The Velveteen Rabbit?? I was not expecting that at all, haha... but it's a terrific story, so thank you!
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autumnlit Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2012
haha yes ^^ You are most welcome! :heart:
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InkatMidnight Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012  Student Writer
and we are all infinite
:heart:
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012
for a moment?
:heart:
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FuzzyHoser Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Goodness, it's so good to see something in my inbox by way of you. And let me say that you have returned with one hell of a bang. This is just incredible, love.

no one kisses like a poisoned man.

and

I felt awake, so very aware
and in awe of my own infinity.


are a blink away from tying for my favorite lines I've read in some time. :heart:
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012
Thank you so much! :heart:
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FuzzyHoser Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
A pleasure, for certain. :heart:
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toxic-nebulae Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012  Student Writer
this is so stunning, from beginning to end.
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archelyxs Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012
Thanks, darling :heart:
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2012  Student Writer
I am drinking off his smile
for my tongue is made of activated charcoal,
and no one kisses like a poisoned man.

so amazing. great, great job. the piece flowed so well. <3
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